In what feels like an eternity ago, August 2009, I was an avid
runner training to run a marathon. 4 years, 4 pregnancies and 2
babies later...well, I own running shoes.
Honestly I miss it. The early morning quiet with the pink sun
just peeking over the subdivisions. The rhythmic pounding of my
feet and the time to just be, to think, to not think, time all
alone for me. I haven't quite figured out how to work that into the
busy life of a mom of four, but I need to.
This past weekend I was a blog ambassador for the Dirty Girl Mud Run
Chicago. It was my first 5K in five years and so out of
my comfort zone. There were costumes and obstacles and mud, lots
and lots of mud. I ran it with two friends and we went into it
completely realistic. We would run what we could, with the goal to
And fun was definitely had. We ran some, we walked a lot. We did
all the obstacles! We climbed and crawled through the mud, and I
even took a tumble down a graveled hill, but we did it. At the end
of the race, sore and achy, all I could think of was, "when do we
do it again?"
It's so easy as a mom to get wrapped up in everyone else's
needs, desires, dreams. Your job is to do things for other people
and it's easy to forget you're a person too. In the dressing and
the feeding and the cleaning and the taking to-and-fro it's easy to
forget that you used to have hobbies and desires and passions.
This weekend, dripping in mud I found myself again. Still there,
deep down, buried under all the responsibility (and mud!) was the
me that got up at four in the morning, not for a diaper, but to run
before the kids went to school. Deep down there was the me that met
a friend early saturday morning for a run instead meeting a friend
She's still there.
Now I just need to find a way, with less mud, to get her out and
let her free.
Melissa is mom to 4 kids and 2 angels | writer | creator | localist with LittleLakeCounty.com. She once lived in heels and dreamed of traveling the world, now she lives in her minivan and dreams of a clean kitchen
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